untamed_soul

Christmas MAGIC?

2010-12-20T10:26:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since I wrote here. I've been busy really. :) But since I'm pissed, I really need to get this off my chest. I just need to write or post anything to stay sane.

So if I had MAGICAL powers, for christmas I would give these:

1. I would give my mom a dose of CONTENTMENT. So that she would QUIT complaining and see how good her life is. So that she would stop picking on me just because she's bitter. She's living a GREAT life, if only she would just stop a bit and see that. So that she would STOP feeling sorry for herself. If only I could give her that, even for just a day, then maybe, just maybe things would be different.

I would also give her STRENGTH and HOPE. So that she can face anything.

2. I would give my dad a sense of FULFILLMENT. From nothing, he worked his way up and now he is a vice president. He may be annoying at times, but he is the best dad ever. He spoils me and my sister and he would stop at nothing to give us a great life. He deserves nothing but the best himself.

3. I would give my sister the RIGHT guy/girl. Haha. I want her to experience the love and happiness that I have right now. I know she hates being cheesy and all, but everyone deserves to be truly loved. And maybe, she'll stop being bitchy. Haha. One can only wish.

4. I would give my friends a MAP that would lead them to the right path. It may be about their careers, lovelife, or whatever really. Just so that they would never get lost and find true happiness too.

5. I would give Jeff the LIFE that he deserves. He has been deprived for a very long time. He and I are alike. We have struggled a lot as we were growing up. I want him to experience how sweet life can be. He deserves nothing but the best. He is such a GOOD person and he has a big heart. Well, of course, I want to be a part of his future. :) And I'll make sure, he won't be miserable with me.

But hmmm. What would I give myself for Christmas if I did have MAGICAL powers?

Hmm. Probably, I would give myself enough brain cells and luck to pass the civil engineering licensure exam. That's really what I need right now. :)

I wonder what other people would give themselves if they had magical powers too. :)

New phone. YEY.

2010-04-30T00:48:00.002+08:00

December 26

2009-12-28T04:14:00.004+08:00

Manor Superclub with Ate Sherry, Steph, Jaffy and Shang. :)

Fun night.

Last few photos from Ate Sherry's camera. :) Thanks, dear. :)

December 25

2009-12-28T04:06:00.001+08:00

Inuman with my family at Eastwood City. :)

This was after eating dinner with the Trinidad clan. :)

Happy Birthday, Papa Jesus

2009-12-25T19:41:00.002+08:00

You have given me SO much this year.

And I am forever thankful for EVERYTHING.

Thank you for all the SCRUMPTIOUS food I have tried this year.

Thank you for all the dates I has with Jeff. Thank you for blessing us with yet another GREAT year. Thank you for teaching us a lot and making us even stronger.

Thank you for keeping my family safe. Thank you for watching over us and keeing us together despite all the problems we faced this year. Thank you for giving my parents another go.

Thank you for my my friends. For giving them to me. They have given me the strength I needed to keep fighting.

This is one of the BEST years yet. Thank you, Lord.

Please help me graduate this March. :)

I love you, Lord.

Happy Birthday.

Amen.

Hongkong (Dec 21-24)

2009-12-25T18:06:00.004+08:00

PALAWAN is LOVE.

2009-12-13T15:25:00.001+08:00

We went to Palawan for 4 days.
And I wanted to STAAAAAY.
Bitin! :)

Best out of town trip EVEEEER!!

Great guy.

2009-11-17T23:24:00.003+08:00

1) He did follow me yesterday when I walked out on him. (Sorry, I was PMS-ing.)

2) He calls me back whenever I hang up on him. (But not all the time. He said there are times when he wants me to cool my head first before we talk again.)

3) I punched him hard a while ago (I was being silly and playful of course) and he hugged me tight.

4) There was this one time when he kissed me just to make me shut up. :))

5) Hahaha. I love him for watching sappy films with me.

6) We like watching the same shows anyway, so we don't fight over the remote.

7) He passes not on booze night (coz he doesn't drink) but on DOTA sessions just to be with me. ♥

8) He definitely knows how to say I'm sorry and I love you.

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I got myself a GOOD man. :)
And I ain't letting him go. ♥♥

21 months and counting.

2009-11-10T03:54:00.009+08:00

Full time student. :)

This is my promise to myself for my last semester in UST.

Waaaah. I am so DAMN excited to get this over with already. :)

Anyway, Jeff and I celebrated our monthsary early because with my schedule, I don't think I would be able to have a social life for almost 5 months. :)

We ate at Dad's. :) YUMMMMM!

Had a GREAT time pigging out with my boyfriend. :)
YEY. :)

Say It Again

2009-11-08T03:02:00.002+08:00

Thing about love, is I never saw it coming
You kinda crept up into me by surprise
And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering
Is this true? I wanna hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love
Say it again

The thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there's no end in sight
The thing about me is that I really wanna let you open the door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

And it feels like it's the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

When you tell me you're in love

Say it again

i LOVE this day

2009-11-04T01:41:00.001+08:00

Thank you for the baby C2, hon. :)

I missed you so muuuuuch. Wah. :)
Thanks for being extra sweet today.

See you soon.

I miss ..

2009-11-02T21:55:00.002+08:00

I miss my boyfriend.

Can't wait to see him tomorrow. :)

Bored

2009-11-01T18:53:00.002+08:00

This is by far the most boring semestral break ever!!! :)

WAAAAH.

This is the first time that my family and I didn't go out of town for the break.

I hate this. :|

2010.

2009-10-31T03:10:00.002+08:00

PICC here I come.

... fingers-crossed!!!!

Never let go.

2009-10-31T02:47:00.002+08:00

You’re the best thing I never knew I needed.
You are my accidental happily ever after.

I am undeniably happy, thanks to you.

I love you.
... and I miss you.

Our journey is not yet over.

2009-10-30T00:50:00.002+08:00

After all the drama, he came back to me.

I was about to give up on us, when he realized that he can't let go just yet.

This happened on September 28, 2009. This was after we went to ABS-CBN with our batchmates to help the Ondoy victims.

We cried and hugged that afternoon. He held on to me tightly and he promised that he will never allow himself to let me go ever again.

I do believe in us and in what we have.

We have been through a lot. I never believed that anyone can fall more and more each day with one person, until I felt it myself. This overwhelming sensation is beyond what I have ever expected.

I love him will all my heart.

I found a DECENT guy with a clean heart and a pure soul.
Someone who can see my true value as a person.
Someone who takes good care of me and never fails to make me smile.
Someone who can stand my imperfections and loves me for who I am.
Someone who is consistently sweet. (and I love that about him.)

He sees something in me. (something I can't even see myself.)

I don't want to lose him.

And we'll see where life takes us.

For now, we belong to each other.
I am HIS. :)

Fingers still crossed.

I love you, Mr. Jeffrey delos Santos.

It's over. =(

2009-09-26T11:00:00.000+08:00

Kaye, thanks for everything. sa dami ng nbgay mo skin d ko alm pano susuklian un. sorry sa mga inconvenience n bngay ko. sa ngaun i guess letting go is a better decision. lagi mong tatandaan sa nangyaring to d lng ikaw ung iiyak. ingat plage. sorry kung d ko nbgay ung forever.

-- Jeff

REGRET

2009-09-15T00:01:00.003+08:00

One second ..
One STUPID act ..
One guy ..
One shot ..

For 21 years, I have never EVER regreted anything in my entire life.
But last night, that one ACT that happened in one second --
I wish I could turn back time and erase it from history.

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REWIND:

The General Assembly was a success. Everyone looked great in their black and white outfits.

After the GA. The girls and I went to buy drinks from 711 and went straight to Kerstine's place. Then we received a text message about an after party at Pier One.

We all went there hoping to loosen up and mingle. (Jeff and the other boys were at Ryan's place then. They had a different party.)

But one thing led to another. And I drank 5 bottles of beer.

Then .. the game began.

Long story short -- I wasn't able to say NO. Body shots. Mark Tovera, my arm, one shot.

I tried to say no. I really did. But I failed. I have never felt such peer pressure in my entire life. I was SUPER scared. Jeff will totally go beserk.

... and he did. When i told him. :(

He was really hurt.

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God, if I could only turn back time. I would STOP myself from doing the dumbest thing I have ever done.

I am ready to give up alcohol.
I am ready to give up clubbing.
... I just don't want to lose him.

Hay.

Sad.

2009-09-11T01:20:00.002+08:00

It's sad

... when things are falling apart in front of you, but you can't seem to do anything to save it.

LAZY

2009-09-09T23:03:00.001+08:00

Why I am feeling so lazy???

WAKE UP KARYLL!!

6 months to go!! DAMN YOU. Don't mess up now, KAYE!!!

I miss blogging.

2009-09-09T18:52:00.003+08:00

I've been SUPER busy lately. And I've gained so MUCH weight coz I've been STRESS eating since last month. DAMN.

I have been under so mush pressure since June.

♥ Despite my best efforts, I failed 2 quizzes on Concrete Design and the preliminary exam.
♥ I need to maintain a grade of 75% til Finals. (Talk about impossible!!)

♥ I failed the first quiz and the preliminary exam on Timber Design.
♥ I need to maintain a grade of 70% til Finals. (Sigh!)

♥ Thesis, halfway done.
♥ But there's still a lot of work to be done. And I need to QUIT fighting with my thesismates.

♥ Concrete Project. --- we haven't started yet. Due in four weeks.
♥ We need to START moving. WAAAAH.

♥ Timber Project. --- FAR from being finished.
♥ We need to MOVE MOVE MOVE.

♥ We need to design the water distribution system of a 40 hectare subdivision.
♥ OH NO. HELP.

♥ I need to pass WATER RESOURCES, and HYDROLOGY too.
♥ WTF is happening to me?

This sunday ---

I can't wait for the AFTER PARTY. Wohoo!! LOL.

I'm BACK.

2009-06-28T03:29:00.003+08:00

Every day I am still blown away ..

By the fact that ...

I am with this WONDERFUL guy.

I must concede – I am in love with Mr. Jeffrey delos Santos.

SUBIC.

2009-04-19T00:32:00.003+08:00

I missed him so much!!
Can you blame me?

For three days (april 9-11), I was constantly reminded of him through these ..
I kept seeing him .. Check out these pictures to see what I mean.

12!! Wohoo!

Pulilan. =/
I wanted to go see him then.

Our room keys.
0212!!!
Our day!

Our room!
212!!!

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We met up the next day for our 14th monthsary. Ate dinner at Aristocrat Restaurant. YUMM.
Then Monday ---> BOWLING TIME! Part two of our 14th monthsary celebration.

Summer classes. One week down. 4 more to go.
DAMN!

Out.

2009-04-09T04:46:00.002+08:00

Will be back this saturday.

Off to a weird (but hopefully fun) outing with my dad and Shang.

I HATE HER!!!!

2009-04-04T18:07:00.001+08:00

Read my old entries. I still sing to the same tune!!!

I HATE MY SISTER.

She's WORSE than EVER.

EVIL!!!!!

ARRRRGH!!
WELL, guess what, she has NO ONE!!!! Awww.

WTF.

2009-04-01T02:54:00.006+08:00

I need to
LOSE WEIGHT.

H E L P !!!!

(Super ugly picture --- SORRY.)

With JEFF.

2009-03-30T00:02:00.006+08:00

March 27 (Gateway)

March 29 (SM Marikina)

FUN FUN FUN.

Summer???

2009-03-29T04:11:00.002+08:00

I've been really busy after our final examinations.

Tssss. Lame. I know.

I haven't been enjoying my summer vacation (or what's left of it).
I have to attend summer classes and OJT.

Bummer.

Anyway, I super MISS Jeff.
Huhu.

Can't wait to see him tom. =D YEY.

I LOVE ...

2009-03-06T23:47:00.005+08:00

MR. JEFFREY DELOS SANTOS

He wants to be a better man for me.
He wants to be the man that I deserve.
He really is my kryptonite.

It's amazing ..
How my WEAKNESS ..
Can give me so much STRENGTH.

Hon, it's always been you.

This time, we're gonna make sure that we'll make things right.

Stay with me forever?

I am SO HAPPY.
And it's all BECAUSE of you.

Thank you.
I love you.

I feel so blessed.
God has really given me the best gift ever!!

KONTING hintay na lang!!!

2009-03-01T03:26:00.003+08:00

Sony Ericsson W760i Specifications

Music

Walkman® player
Album art
Shake control
SensMe™
Stereo speakers built-in
Bluetooth™ stereo (A2DP)
Mega Bass™
Music tones (MP3/AAC)
PlayNow™
TrackID™

Camera

3.2 megapixel camera
Digital zoom, 2.5x
BestPic™
Photo fix
Picture blogging
Video blogging
Video recording
Auto rotate
PictBridge printing

Communication

Polyphonic ringtones
Speakerphone
Vibrating alert
Video calling

Messaging

Email
Instant messaging
Picture messaging (MMS)
Predictive text input
Sound recorder
Text messaging (SMS)

Design

Navigation key
Picture wallpaper
Wallpaper animation

Connectivity

Bluetooth™ technology
Modem
Synchronization
USB mass storage
USB support

Entertainment

3D games including Need for Speed™ ProStreet
Java
Motion-sensitive gaming
A & B gaming buttons
FM radio with RDS
Video streaming
Video viewing

Internet

RSS feeds
Access NetFront™ Web browser
Google Maps Mobile

Accessories In box

Battery
Charger
USB cable
1GB Memory Stick Micro™ (M2™)
Stereo Portable Hands Free
Sony Ericsson PC Suite
Media Manager content transfer software

Facts and Figures

Size: 103 x 48 x 15 mm
Weight: 103 grams
Colours: Rocky Silver, Fancy Red and Intense Black
Screen: 262,144 color TFT
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Talk time GSM: Up to 9 hrs
Standby time GSM: Up to 400 hrs
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Standby time UMTS: Up to 350 hrs
Video call time: Up to 3 hrs
Music listening time: Up to 20 hrs

I Never Knew Love Could Be Like This

2009-02-22T15:31:00.003+08:00

I was afraid to feel this way
To let down the walls
Take a chance I might fall

Then you swept those fears away
You had faith in me
In all I could be

I never knew love could be like this
I never dreamed I could feel like this
You're all I need, you're the light that shines inside of me
I've never loved like this

I've been searching all my life
Opening doors - yet I knew there was more
I wasn't one to make believe
Then you showed me how
And look at me now I never knew love could be like this
I never dreamed I could feel like this
You're all I need
You're the light that shines inside of me
I've never loved like this

Just like the touch of summer rain
This heart of mine's alive again
Can try again
In your eyes I see forever

I never knew love could be like this
I never dreamed I could feel like this
You're all I need
You're the light that shines inside of me
I've never loved like this
I never knew love could be like this

LOVE LOVE.

2009-02-22T14:40:00.003+08:00

I was afraid to let my guard down.
Afraid to allow anyone to come into my life and to see what I hid behind my mask.

But he came into my life.
And he proved himself worthy of my trust and LOVE.

He makes me so damn happy. And I have never felt this way before.
He is definitely the BEST part of my day.

And I would want nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with him.

I wish I could share this overwhelming feeling.
But I can't find the right words. It's frustrating, really.

We just celebrated our anniversary 2 weeks ago.
1 year down, and an eternity to go.

And I am PROUD to say that the SPARK is still there.
I still sigh with relief when he kisses my forehead.
I will never grow tired of holding his hand.
I still LOVE his hugs and I feel such comfort when he has his arms around me.

I am still so much in-love with Mr. Jeffrey delos Santos.

Enough said.

March 4

2009-02-22T12:23:00.003+08:00

Can hardly wait. WOHOO!!!!

NEW ACES SECRETARY.

2009-02-21T00:06:00.001+08:00

YEHEY. I won!!! =D

FUN FUN.

Thanks to those who have voted for me and I promise that I will do my best.

KAYE's week

2009-02-16T02:44:00.009+08:00

Eng'g week = MY WEEK.

FEBRUARY 9 (Monday)

Fourth Year Civil Engineering Field Trip.
Steel Asia + Moldex.
Tiring but FUN FUN day.

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FEBRUARY 12 (Thursday)

Jeff and I spent the whole night (Feb 11) together.
We waited for 12 am.
Went to school with Jeff.
Job Fair bonding with Arjay, Arnold and Jowy.
Afternoon Bonding Session with Lyka (Iyah arrived around 6 pm).
SURPRISE from JEFF and my girls.
Dinner at Yellow Cab (my treat).
Jeff and I waited for the day to end.
Came home past 12 am.

One of the best birthdays again.
JEFF and I turned 1 that day too.
TOP THAT!!!!

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FEBRUARY 13 (Friday)

Job fair with the girls.
Vanity Session.
Videoke at G-box.
Dinner at SM San Lazaro.
Bonding time with Jeff + Yuri + Micah + Tina til 10 pm.

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FEBRUARY 14 (Saturday)

DATE at SM Mall of ASIA.
Arcade + Lunch (Food Trip).
Ate again at Mrs. Fields Cafe.
Then dinner date with Lyka and Iyah.

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February 15 (Sunday)

Dinner Date with the two most important men in my life.
JEFF and my DAD.
Ate at Congo Grille.
Chilled at Starbucks.

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FUN FUN WEEK!!!!
I love it.

FEBRUARY 12

2009-02-12T01:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21st birthday to me.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to us.

Haha. We started the day together. =D We waited til 12 am.
We spent the whole night together.
YEY!!

Off to a GREAT start.
Can hardly wait for the rest of the day. =D

happy BIRTHDAY???

2009-02-08T01:47:00.002+08:00

My mom's not here.
Shang and I are not ok.
Tonee and I are still not ok.
My dad may not show up on my birthday.

Only upside. It's our ANNIVERSARY too.

Well, we'll see how my day would go.

Back to Photoshop 7.0

2009-01-27T01:25:00.002+08:00

DAMN IT. My CS3 ain't working anymore. I had to revert back to Adobe Photoshop 7.0.

Oh well, I badly needed Photoshop to create something for our Anniversary. So I had to find a way to download any version from the internet. This is ok, I guess.

Sigh.

monDATE.

2009-01-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

FUN FUN monday with Jeff.

What a GREAT way to start the week!!

17 days to go before our ANNIVERSARY. Wohoo.

Bliss.

2009-01-21T00:54:00.008+08:00

All it takes is one single moment to change the rest of the moments of your life.

And there's no one else I'd rather be with.

My heart is yours to keep forever.

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

It's impossible to find someone

that won't bring you pain.

so you just have to find the person

who is worth it all.

X_x

2009-01-19T22:41:00.004+08:00

BRAIN DEAD.

I've reached my limit.

Information ooh-o-OVERLOAD.
SYSTEM ... crashing.

KABOOOOOM!

PETER LIM + NANCY ELERIA = BRAIN DEAD.

WHAT THE???

2009-01-19T03:40:00.000+08:00

People. WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME??

I had my hopes up for a lot of couples.
I actually thought they could surpass anything.
FOREVER seemed possible because of them.

I mean, I've seen them all fall in-love.
I've witnessed their courtship days.
I've seen them fight and then make-up.
I envied how they spent their monthsaries .. ANNIVERSARIES. (well, back when I was single. haha.)

Then I get a bit busy with schoolwork. Wasn't able to catch up with some of my pals for a couple of months. Then news about couples breaking-up are just piling up nowadays. WHAT THE HELL? Is this a new fad? Am I supposed to follow this new trend?

Ok, so maybe I get why these couples broke-up. And I do agree that it's for the best. I know how hard it must have been for most of them. But DAMN. I'm just SHOCKED.

I mean their boyfriends, no scratch that -- their EX-boyfriends turned out to be JERKS. I thought they were decent. They had me convinced that they were sincere.

Some of these said couples lasted for more than 3 years. Some for almost 8 months. But the love they've shown before .. they still exude that same amount of LOVE for their new girlfriends.

These were the same guys who exerted so much effort before. Now, they are just a thing in the past. I mean, if guys could give the same amount of LOVE they gave before, why should any GIRL believe that she is SPECIAL?

FAITH, I guess.

To put so much faith into one person who could possibly find another person to love anyway is just SCARY.

But that's how it is. We just need to find that one person, who will be worth the risk. Worth the pain. And maybe, just maybe .. he really is the one for you. And maybe you are indeed SPECIAL to him.

Haha. I guess I was really affected by the recent break-up news. I'm glad I have Jeff, though. He's the reason why I still believe in FOREVER.

Maybe, If I'm REALLY lucky -- he'll turn out to be my HAPPILY EVER AFTER.
I have my fingers-crossed. Wish us luck.

Quotes.

2009-01-19T01:09:00.004+08:00

"The sweetest sound of all
is that of your own name
spoken by the only boy
you care about."

"We keep on saying goodbye
but we can never seem to let go."

"You are the world within the world that I exist
You are the touch that just won't fade
You are the end and beginning of each and every day
You are the reason I stay sane."

"The best thing about him is the fact that he's not perfect.
i mean, his socks dont always match
& his sweatshirt has a few holes in it
he doesnt always know exactly the right thing to say,
but he tries his best anyway.
he cant really figure out love,
but he's trying it out with me.
& even though he's not perfect,
i know he's perfect for me."

"See that's the problem with us. we're too much alike.
we're both stubborn asses, and ALWAYS want to get our own way.
we both hate to be wrong & love to be right.
but that's the thing about love. no matter what happens...
we always come back for each other one more time."

FEAR.

2009-01-19T01:00:00.004+08:00

Athazagoraphobia

-- Abnormal and persistent fear of being forgotten.

Autophobia

-- Fear of being alone.

Finding myself again.

2009-01-17T23:02:00.002+08:00

Somehow, I feel like I've lost myself when I fell in-love.
Nothing too drastic, though.

But I need to somehow find myself again.

To start acting like the 'old' Karyll again.

TOMORROW!!!

2009-01-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

We will be celebrating our 11th month TOMORROW!! Woot woot!

Can hardly wait!!! WAH. We're planning to go to Rob Place Ermita. But I'm not sure if that'll happen coz we have to study for our prelims.

I feel so HAPPY, though. Today, we met up with my HS friend, Amee. Ate at 'The Pit' and bonded for an hour.

He's been extra sweet lately. Weeee!!

Hehe. =D Whatever we do tomorrow -->> as long as I'm with him -->> that's good enough for me.

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!! (Eeek. So mushy. Hihi.)

BACK TO REALITY.

2009-01-03T20:32:00.002+08:00

After having such a colorful Christmas Vacation -- I do not want to wake-up yet.

Well, maybe I do. The year started with a pfft. Not with a BANG.
It started with a bad case of family drama. Hehe.

Come to think of it, I'll be seeing Jeff again. YEY. That's the upside.

I miss Jeff so much. 9 days to go before our 11th month. Waaah. Can hardly wait for our anniversary. YEY.

I'd be seeing my girls too. And my FFs. YEY.

Sir Jess too. Uggghhh. Hahaha.

2009 Checklist.

2009-01-02T02:15:00.003+08:00

FRIENDSHIP
[x] Did Tonee and I make-up?
[x] Did I make new enemies? (Tsk tsk. Hehe.)
[x] How many new friends did I make?
[x] How many times did I bond with ste11ar this year?
[x] How many outings did I have with my college buddies?

LOVE
[x] Are we still together? (Hopefully, YES. Haha.)
[x] If yes, are we still HAPPY and in-love?
[x] Are we fighting less or more?

SCHOOL
[x] Did I pass all of my subjects?
[x] Am I going to graduate on time?
[x] Have I done anything to be proud of this year?
[x] Did I take my studies seriously this year?

FAMILY
[x] Are my parents still arguing like crazy?
[x] Did Shang CHANGE for the better? (I hope so.)
[x] Less family drama? Or more?
[x] How many bars did we (Trinidad + Lucero girls) go to this year?

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I'd get back to this entry on January 1, 2010 and I'd answer these questions.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, y'all.

i MISS ste11ar.

2008-12-30T19:07:00.002+08:00

Ste11ar night

2008-12-30T14:53:00.002+08:00

FUN FUN ste11ar NIGHT.

I missed my girls so much. YEY. We drank and revealed secrets. HAHA.

We were all wasted thanks to Lyka's drink. Hehe.

Can't wait for our next bonding session!!

2nd day.

2008-12-27T13:09:00.004+08:00

HAHA. I'm currently waiting for my family .. (Tagal nila maligo.)

So we started the day with a scrumptuous breakfast. YUMMM. Then off to the beach. Now .. We'll be going to the TREE TOP ADVENTURE. See the website.

http://www.treetopadventure.com.ph/

YEY. Well. Gotta go now. =D

Thank you, Wireless Internet.

2008-12-27T02:32:00.005+08:00

HAHA. I will be uploading more of our SUBIC/OLONGAPO adventure in my multiply soon. FUN FUN FUN. We'll be staying here til Dec 28. =D

My HERO.

2008-12-26T02:35:00.001+08:00

I found myself my very own Peter Parker, Clark Kent, Bruce Wayne.
Haha. He does have the power to make everything go away ..

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Dear Hon,

I will never grow tired of saying how much I love you. Everyday, you make it better without even trying. I cry at times because of the SHIT that I have to go through here at home, but you make it all better. Knowing that I have you, makes me feel stronger.

I have always been strong and I will be fine with or without you in my life. But I choose to be with you. I try to come up with reasons why I made that decision but to no avail. For some inexplicable reason, this is what my heart wants. This is what I want. I want YOU.

I can still be the same old Karyll without losing you.

I go out.
I party.
I drink.
I still have time for my friends.
I still have my daily dose of family drama.

But at the same time I turn into a different girl when you're around. And my HS friends definitely love this version of me.

Santa has given me the best present I could ever ask for.

They've warned us that there will be more fights ahead of us. I pray that, together, we would have the strength to surpass all of them. I love you so much. In two months, we will be celebrating my 21st birthday and oh yeah .. our FIRST anniversary. Yey.

I miss you. MWAH.

XOXO,
Kaye.

Hey, frenemy.

2008-12-25T19:22:00.007+08:00

THIS CHRISTMAS:

I tried to reconcile with an old friend. But to no avail.

NOT MY LOSS, though. I have my friends, my family, and JEFF. What more can I possibly ask for?

If you're STUBBORN enough to ignore my christmas greeting, BOO! Haha. I can't do anything about it. You've lost your christmas spirit, eh? Awww. Poor thing.

Hahaha. I tried. Hope she's having a good christmas, though. Coz, God knows I am enjoying mine. Hehe.

Busy Christmas Vacation

2008-12-25T03:54:00.005+08:00

December 19-20

Where: Villa Ronar
With: My UST girlfriends

Bonding Session. Cry-fest. Learned more about each other. Missed those who weren't there. Swimming session + pictorial in the morning. Lunch at McDonalds.

FUN FUN FUN.

December 20

After my date with the girls, I went home. Went to Galleria with my mom and dad. BONDING with my parents. SHOPPING!!!! Yey. Ate at Mangan. Then had a drink at Mocha Blends before going home. It was a Shang-free day.

Bought -- 3 new tops. A dress. My gift for jeff. And a pair of tribu slippers for Jeff.

FUN.

December 21

I was supposed to go out on a date with Jeff that day. But I woke up with a bad case of LBM. Haha. Plus fever. After texting him that I wouldn't be able to go out, he sent me a text message ..

"Wawa ka naman, hon. Wait mo ko diyan, ok? Puntahan kita, tomorrow na po ako uwi sa amin. Mmmmmh."

We spent the whole afternoon watching TV. Yeah, I was a bit gross, but he took care of me. I rested my head on his lap and fell asleep (30 minutes lang).

He was really sweet. This may not have been what we have planned for but being sick has never been this much FUN. Hehe.

December 22

Rob Place Metro East -- Lunch at Pancake House with my family. Then went straight to Trinoma. Another SHOPPING DAY. Yey.

Bought -- a new hoodie jacket, a new top, my gifts for Shang and my parents, a Yoyo Cici small stuffed toy (2 inches), and a pair of shoes.. YEY.

December 21

Christmas party with the Trinidad family. Lola Nenet and my other cousins from La Union were there too. We then went to Makati. Then went to Galleria to eat. Went to Espana (Sampaloc, Manila) to drop Tita Del's package that will be sent to them by a bus. Then attempted to go to our dorm, unfortunately, we weren't able to open the door. Huhu.

Tiring day. But it was ok, I guess. Hehe.

December 24-25

Christmas Party with the Flores Family. Ate Sherry, Steph, Shang and I drank Gran Matador. We all wore our costumes. Vanity session with Steph. We exchanged gifts around 12 am. YEY. Ate a LOT. Hahahahaha. See my multiply page for the pictures.

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Merry Christmas, y'all.

MERRY CHRISTMAS, Y'all.

2008-12-24T17:58:00.003+08:00

Changed my layout. See credits.

And oh yeah, I've been extremely busy lately. I'll be busy til December 29. YEY.

May you all have a BLESSED christmas.

Karyll Trinidad

2008-12-01T21:04:00.001+08:00

[x] Name: Karyll Flores Trinidad
[x] Birthplace: Pasig, City
[x] Current Location: Antipolo, City
[x] Eye Color: Brown
[x] Hair Color: Dark brown
[x] Righty or Lefty: Righty
[x] Zodiac Sign: Aquarius

-----------------YOU PREFER------------------

[x] Pepsi or coke: Coke
[x] McDonalds or Burger King: McDonald's
[x] Single or group dates: Single
[x] Adidas or Nike: Nike
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino

-----------------DO YOU------------------

[x] Smoke: Trying to QUIT.
[x] Take a shower: Yes.
[x] Have a crush(es): Yes.
[x] Think you have been in-love?: Yes.
[x] Want to get married: Of course.
[x] Believe in yourself: YES.
[x] Play an instrument: Yup.

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------

[x] Flown on a plane: Yup.
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: Yes.
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: HAHA. Yup.
[x] Cried during a Movie?: Yes.
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: Eeek. NO.
[x] Been caught "doing something": HAHAHA. Yes.
[x] Been in a fight: Who hasn’t?

-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------

[x] Number of boyfriends you have had: Had? None.
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life: 293290382
[x] Number of CDs that I own: Errr. More than 10? Not sure.
[x] Number of tattoos: ZERO.
[x] Number of things in my past that I regret: ZERO.

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------

[x] Yourself: Yes
[x] Your friends: Yes
[x] Santa Claus: No
[x] Ghosts: No
[x] God: Yes

------------- FRIENDS AND LIFE -------------

[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: Nope
[x] Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: Yes.
[x] Do you like anyone?: I like a lot of people.
[x] Which one of your friends is most like you?: Tina.
[x] Who have you known the longest of your pals?: Amee!!!
[x] Who do you hang around the most?: Jeff.
[x] What’s the best feeling in the world?: Being with my friends and family
[x] Worst Feeling?: Failing anything.

-------------- IN THE LAST 24 HRS -------------

[x] Cried: No
[x] Worn jeans: Yes
[x] Met someone: Yes
[x] Talked on the phone: Yes

-----------------OPPOSITE SEX------------------

[x] Best eye color: Brown
[x] Best hair color: Black? Brown?
[x] Short or long hair: SHORT.
[x] Best height: Basta mas matangkad sa akin.
[x] Best weight: Basta mas mabigat sa akin.
[x] Best first date location: Anywhere romantic.

Bored.

2008-12-01T19:21:00.002+08:00

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful

But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself

You're the perfect blend of independent and caring

You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

Your Relationship Will Last... A Long Time!

Your guy is ideal, as close to Mr. Perfect as he could be

If you took this quiz, you may be doubting that...

Don't! No guy is perfect but yours comes really close

You guys will last for many years, as long as you appreciate him!

How Long Will Your Relationship With Your Guy Last?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You tend to give more than take in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!

Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.

If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.

You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

WAR

2008-11-26T11:28:00.002+08:00

This STUPID war between our group and theirs is really getting on my nerves. It's annoying how even when I try to reach out, the supposedly 'nice' ones from their side actually ignored me.

ARGHHH.

If this is how you want to play, FINE.

Happy day!!!

2008-11-25T01:41:00.002+08:00

It's weird that even after 9 months.. We still have days like these.

Today, was an ordinary day. But somehow, he made it special.
We ate at 'The Pit' again!!! =D Haha. I had Oreo Cheesecake for dessert. Yey.
Even while eating, we fooled around. We laughed like crazy while enjoying our meal.

We went back to my dormitory then we found ourselves laughing again. We talked about a lot of things. He held my hand the whole night. Well, except when he had his arms around my waist.

Whenever we'd end a topic and we'd be silent for a few seconds, he'd look at me then lean to kiss my forehead.

He was super sweet.

I still can't believe that I have found someone who can make me this HAPPY.

In two weeks, we will be celebrating our 10th month. WOW.

Last night, was also fun. We played pool then we stayed in our fave spot. =D

I am definitely so HAPPY to have him on my life.

Depressed Mode

2008-11-21T00:45:00.003+08:00

"There is joy beneath the surface of everything right now, and you are in the exact right frame of mind to see it! Look again at that stranger walking by you -- don't you see a smile? Whether they're flirting with you or not isn't even relevant. They are happy -- and that will make you happy. You are clearly in a strong period of ease right now, where you can put in half the effort to get the full reward. Things are coming to you more quickly and people are working around your schedule."

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I definitely need to see the silver lining .. The rainbow... The light at the end of the tunnel. =(

I just want to be OK again. And not to feel left behind .. not to feel so damn lonely.

I sometimes find myself eating alone. There are days when I am surrounded by my classmates and we eat together, but then again, being the only girl in my class, when they decide to play ... I sit alone inside the classroom, waiting for my next class.

It's nice meeting new friends and reuniting with old ones, but it's TOUGH being so far away from my barkada.

Especially now that I'm faced with more problems. =(

I feel so weak.

Jeff, keeps me strong .. I cried like a kid a few hours ago, and he hugged me tight ..

I need to be OK again.

Love?

2008-11-14T19:11:00.005+08:00

What is it really? Look it up in GOOGLE and you'll see the thousands of ways people try to describe it. But no one can really claim to be a LOVE expert, the word itself is not easy to define.

When you say, you're in-LOVE .. how do you know that it's not just infatuation? And is there really a difference between the two?

Some of us have read about it in novels, long before we find ourselves wanting to feel that emotion and to have someone to share special 'kilig' moments with. Then comes that one person whom you make yourself think is the 'one'.

Being young and naive, we allow ourselves to be drowned by such a powerful emotion.

Then comes our first heartbreak. We then learn more about 'love' and 'pain'.

Of course, it's not the same for all.

But for me? (after all the heartaches ..)

LOVE is ...

♥♥ Finding comfort in his hugs.

♥♥ Getting lost track of time without needing anything extravagant to have a good time .. Just me, him and good conversation.

♥♥ Feeling surprisingly calm after receiving a kiss from him on my forehead.

♥♥ The bliss I feel when he suddenly decides to reach for my hand when we're together and he squeezes it ever so gently.

♥♥ Finally believing in myself because he makes me see things in a different light.

♥♥ When all my problems seems bearable because I have found myself a knight-in-shining-armor.

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Now that's LOVE for me.

2008 Christmas Wishlist.

2008-11-14T16:31:00.003+08:00

[x] New tops.
[x] A cute jacket.
[x] Another romatic date with Jeff.
[x] A new bag.
[x] A night out with my Lucero cousins + Shang.
[x] Another out-of-town trip with ste11ar.
[x] Another trip with my college friends.
[x] An outing with my family.
[x] A relaxing day at a spa.

and of course, PEACE on earth. =D

Checklist.

2008-11-14T02:20:00.005+08:00

December 09, 2006 -- I wrote this.

i want a boy ..

[x] who will play basketball with me
(and sometimes let me win..)

(we play basketball at the various arcades, that counts I guess. haha.)

[x] who laughs at my jokes ..
and makes me smile ..
(even when he's not around)

(aww. even after 9 months, he can still make me smile like crazy.)

[x] who will buy me flat tops ..
samba, chocnut ..
kitkat or twix ..
without needing a reason to do so.
(the price really doesn't matter,
it may be cheap .. but to me - -
it's PRICELESS.)

(haha. He actually does bring me chocolates without needing a reason to do so.)

[x] who will have many inside jokes
with and me and remember each one..

(aww. shoot. we have a LOT of inside jokes. hahaha. and sometimes, we'd find ourselves just looking at each other, smiling like dorks and know exactly why we're laughing on the inside. haha.)

[x] who will hold my hand ..
and make me feel that ....
he doesn't want to let go.

(awww. i love it when he reaches for my hand and squeezes it gently from time to time.)

[x] who i can go swimming with.

(he doesn't know how to swim, but I can sure as hell swim with him. haha.)

[x] who will spend time with
me and my family.

(he has met not only my parents and shang, but the whole trinidad and flores clan. he's invited to almost all our family celebrations/gatherings. YEY.)

[o] who will play tennis with me.

(awww. BOO. I'm no longer allowed to play and he doesn't know how to play either.)

[x] who will bring me seashells ..
from the beach.

(we collected seashells when we went to anilao, that counts I guess.)

[x] who will shake my dad's hand
and look my mother in the eye..

(he and my dad, they're ok, i guess. he's still shy around my parents though. but my parents like him and my mom even remembers him when she shops for our family.)

[x] who loves to hangout with
me and my friends ..
and go along with our crazy antics.

(we have had trips out-of-town with my college friends and my HS friends. and he gets along with my friends just fine.)

[x] who will study with me ..

(hello, Wendy's .. HAHAHA. I love him when he tutors me.)

[o] who will send me
doodles or notes.

(aww. he's not into doodling or sending mushy notes. haha.)

[x] who will SURPRISE me
even when there's no occassion.

(yes. he surprises me from time to time and i LOVE it when he does that. he's so SWEET.)

[x] who loves to
whisper in my ear.

(when we're together, sometimes he'll say

"psst. may bubulong ako. I LOVE YOU."

haha. some may find it corny, but not me. i think it's cute when he does that.)

[o] who will show up at my house unexpectedly.

(aww. he hasn't done that yet.)

[x] who will eat chicken with me.
(hehe!)

(we LOVE eating spicy chicken at Cely's canteen.)

[x] who will bear with me
when i get into what-is-this-life soliloquies.

(he listens to me but he cuts me off when I get too emotional already. he hates it when I'm sad.)

[x] who will play pool with me ..
then teach me cool new moves.

(haha. almost every week, we play pool atleast once. and he does have some pointers for me.)

[x] who will sing to me ..
even when he's not in tune.

(we had one date, when we went to a videoke place, and we sang together. and it was FUN. and when we're bored, we'd use our ipods together and sing.)

[x] who will watch movies with me.
even the chick-flicks.

(haha. we LOVE romantic comedies.)

[x] who will watch cartoons with me.

(i found myself a boyfriend who loves cartoons .. cute.)

[x] who will try to get along with my sister.

(he and shang are friends. not that close, but we sometimes, pay pool together.)

[o] who will call me up just
to make me hear a song..

(well, he calls me just for the heck of it. but not because of a song or whatever. haha.)

[x] who will shop with me.

(yes. haha. and he was REALLY tired after.)

[x] who will tell me when i'm wrong.

(he's like my kuya and my bestfriend, so he's not really afraid to tell me off.)

[x] who will take silly pictures with me.

(we have a LOT of silly pictures together.)

[x] who will eat my veggies.

(when i order at a restaurant, he automatically knows that the he'd be eating my veggies and he'd also share his food with me. hehe.)

[x] who will love me ...
the crazy, weird, tactless KARYLL.

(he loves me, alright. hehe.)

[x] who tells me i have a nice laugh ...
and a smile that light up the room
.... and simply be mine to hold.

(he told me before that he LOVES my smile and when I laugh. and he sure is MINE to hold.)

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This is so COOL. He's my ideal guy. Hahaha.

YEY.

9th month

2008-11-13T01:14:00.001+08:00

FUN FUN FUN.

But my phone died on me today. DARN.

We ate at Congo Grille .. Then watched "Madagascar 2".

He was SUPER sweet. YEY. Three-fourths of a year down. Happier than EVER.

Thanks, hon.

I can ..

2008-11-07T21:03:00.000+08:00

only hold my breath for so long. =(

Don't make me wait too long.

FAITH

2008-11-06T01:19:00.003+08:00

I have never been more sure of anything in my life.

When I look at him, I just know that I am with the person I'm supposed to be with.

I guess, I love him more than I thought possible.

It's scary though, to admit that someone has this much power over you ... to be HAPPY but vulnerable at the same time.

He has the power to crush my heart and blow it to smithereens.

But I have faith in him. Faith that he is, indeed, one of the good guys.

We will be celebrating our 9th month next week. Yey.

280 days and counting ...

2008-11-05T22:39:00.002+08:00

Always and Forever.

May God bless us with more HAPPY and exciting days.

I'm SO happy. Hahaha.

Your Universe

2008-11-05T22:22:00.001+08:00

Tell me something
When the rain falls on your face
How do you quickly replace it with
A golden summer smile?

Tell me something
When I'm feelin' tired and afraid
How do you know just what to say to make
Everything alright?

Chorus:
I don't think that you even realize
The joy you make me feel when I'm inside
Your universe
You hold me like I'm the one who's precious
I hate to break it to you but it's just
The other way around
You can thank your stars all you want but
I'll always be the lucky one

Tell me something
When I'm 'bout to lose control
How do you patiently hold my hand
And gently calm me down?

Tell me something
When you sing and when you laugh
Why do I always photograph my heart
Flyin way above the clouds?

I miss ...

2008-11-03T01:49:00.001+08:00

♥♥ iLOVEjeff. ♥♥

Finally Found

2008-11-02T02:58:00.005+08:00

I can't believe you're here with me
And now it seems my world's complete
And I never want this moment to end
I close my eyes and still I see
My dreams become reality
And now I know how it feels to be in love
I prayed so many nights that you would come my way
An angel from above to light my darkest day
I think it's time for you to heed these lines
'Cos there's something I want to say

I finally found what I've been looking for
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
(It's always been you)
To think that you were always there (always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
Now it's clear that it's always been you

Sometimes you don't expect that friends
Can become lovers in the end
Only god knows what the future will bring
So hold me close and don't let go
'Cos this is love, boy, don't you know?
And we're gonna be together for eternity
I prayed so many night that you would come my way
An angel from above to light my darkest day
A love so strong it's can't be wrong
It's with you that I belong

I finally found what I've been looking for (finally found)
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
(It's always been you)
To think that you were always there (you were always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
Now it's clear that it's always been you (you)

(This time) this time
I'm gonna make sure it turns out right
I wanna be your everything and by your side
For the rest of my life
(This love) this love
Feels the way that love should be
Look in my eyes and realize there's no disguise
'Cos I'm in love with you

I finally found what I've been looking for
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
To think that you were always there (you were always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
(Wipe away my tears)
Now it's clear that it's always been you
(It's always been you) (3x)

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It's an old song. But .. When I heard it today, I just remembered JEFF.

WAH. I miss him. =D

021208

2008-11-02T01:52:00.003+08:00

ON THE SIDE OF ANGELS

"I've never been so certain, I've never been so sure."

"After all the might-have-beens,
The close and distant calls
After all the try-agains,
Don't be afraid to fall
We're on the side of angels after all. "

"Heaven only knows,
Why this took so long.
But only Heaven knows,
A love is right or wrong."

Happy

2008-10-28T02:00:00.000+08:00

I've been extremely happy lately. Thanks to my High School and College friends and Jeff.

I had a great sembreak. I still have less than a week to have FUN.

I'm TRYING to block out every NEGATIVE thoughts I have in my body. All the screaming .. the anger, the pain .. THE FAMILY DRAMA.

I will have none of that. PLEASE. I think I deserve some peace and quiet.

Anyway, I'm still not OK with a certain friend, though. But I can't do anything about it now. I know for a fact that I didn't do anything wrong. She somehow betrayed me and yeah, I was wrong to remove her from my featured friends (I was hurt and all and it clouded my judgement.) .. But then I realized that she deleted me from friendster and multiply. She also deleted Jeff by the way. (WOAH. Mature much?)

She just showed me how little I meant to her in front of my very own eyes. I really felt betrayed hearing her that night. She acted all snotty after and pretended to not know why I was mad.

When I mustered every ounce of strength I had when I got home, I texted her and told her off. She only said, "Sorry." and she didn't even try to win me over again.

So much for the effort, FRIEND.

Anyway, that's over and done. And I'm not mad anymore .. I just won't be the one to make the first move, that would just be WRONG in so many levels.

I still have my travellers, my FFs, my MSGs, my ste11ar, my best friend and JEFF.

Hehe. Can't wait for tomorrow - - no scratch that - - I meant LATER. Haha.

Can't wait to see Jeff. Yey.

Sad.

2008-10-22T02:59:00.002+08:00

I miss JEFF so much. =(

I miss how he kisses my forehead when I'm sad/
I miss how he touches my hand.
I miss his hugs.
I miss his laugh.
I miss his voice.
I miss his dorky hair.
I miss how he smiles.

I miss my bestfriend, my 'kuya', my confidant ... my JEFF. =(

Sem-break Update

2008-10-19T12:01:00.002+08:00

I have spent the first few days of my sembreak at UST. I didn't come home due to the consultations. I failed Theory and Fluid Mechanics by the way.

My college friends and I (on the last day of the consultations) went to Laguna. Wohoo. Had so much fun.

The next day, I arrived at Antipolo around 11.30 pm.

The following day .. I bonded with Shang. We drank vodka and shared stories.

Yesterday, I went to visit AA with my HS friends. Then went to Padi's point for a drink.

I'm making the most out of this semestral break. =D

FAILURE

2008-10-08T20:35:00.000+08:00

IMPENDING FAILURE.

Theory
Fluid Mechanics

Double Date

2008-10-05T00:17:00.003+08:00

Saturday date with jeff + my mom and dad. LOL.

How the hell did this happen? Hmmm..

First off, we were set home early by Ma'am Sarausad (Yey!). Jeff and I rode with Mae and Drew back to our dormitories. My mom was already there (cleaning our room) while my dad was at SM San Lazaro (buying the ingredients he needed to cook my 2 of my favorite dishes - - Sinigang and Adobo.)

They finished doing their things around 6.40 (Jeff was sleeping since we got back.)

We invited him to join us for dinner.

We ate at Congo Grille. Ate a LOT.

Then went to see "Mirrors". Haha. It was good and we all had a great time. We got back to Dapitan around 11.30 pm. FUN FUN night with my parents and my JEFF. Yey.

This was a good way to loosen up before the grueling nights ahead of us. Haha.

Text messages.

2008-10-04T01:12:00.003+08:00

"Hahaha. Kaye, love you po. Mas gusto na ngayon maghintay talaga, kakayanin ko lahat ng magiging desisyon mo." -- 09/15/07

"Hintayin pa din kita, Kaye." -- 12/26/07

"Hehe. Kung kailangan kahit diyan na lang tayo sa loob ng wall mo, para wala ng makakagulo sa atin." -- 01/07/08

"Loloadan na kita ah, miss na miss na po kita eh." -- 01/27/08

"Happy 1st day, hon. Love you, hon. Hmmm. Hug." -- 02/13/08

"Di ko na alam dapat itype sa cellphone ko. hahaha. I'm insane hon, di na maalis smile ko, waaaaaaaaaah." -- 02/21/08

"Haha. The best talaga pag magkasama tayo. Lalo na pag magka-hug tayo." -- 02/23/08

"Kakatapos ko lang magpray. Nagpapasalamat ako kay God kasi binigay ka niya sa kin para mahalin ko. Ingat ka palagi, hon. Love you." -- 02/24/08

"Will you marry me, hon?" -- 03/21/08

"Hay, sa wakas. Makakasama na ulit kita tom. Happy 58 days, 12 hours and 10 minutes." -- 04/11/08

"Mahal na mahal po kita, yaw ko na mawala ka sa kin." -- 04/12/08

"Happy 4th month po sa atin hon, mahal na mahal kita." -- 06/12/08

"Mahal na mahal pa din po kita. I mean this kaye. Isa lang naman gusto ko eh, makasama ka na ulit." -- 07/05/08

"Good morning baby, I love you yesterday, today , tomorrow and until the end of time. Mwaaah." -- 07/11/08

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To be continued. =D 8 days before our 8th MONTHSARY. =D

LOSING HOPE.

2008-10-03T18:48:00.001+08:00

Blew it a while ago. =( DAMN IT.

I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.

ENE + GE + PLATES

2008-10-01T22:17:00.002+08:00

Why did I have to be sick, today of all days?

DAMN IT.

Betrayal

2008-09-30T22:34:00.003+08:00

Betrayed by someone I used to look up to. Tsk tsk.

Now, I recently found out that she had the odacity to ERASE me in her friendster and multiply account.

Errr. IMMATURE much?

I did nothing WRONG. She was SELFISH and she used me to make herself look innocent. Funny how she fooled NO ONE.

She was even surprised that I got mad. Errr. IDIOT.

I'm no longer mad at her. Maybe a tad bit. But only because of what she did recently.

Is this really the end of our friendship?

Thank you!!! =D

2008-09-30T01:28:00.002+08:00

From Tita (Jeff's Mom)

From JAPAN. ♥♥♥

His 2nd monthsary gift.

2007 Xmas gift

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Another insomnia attack. =D Couldn't sleep, so I decided to post these pictures.

Recap:

Very TIRING day. Woke up around 6 am. Ate breakfast, took a bath, etc. Went to Tayuman with Jeff (8 am) then rode the LRT to Baclaran. Couldn't get on the train because it was jampacked. Three trains passed, people by the platform had to practically push themselves to fit before the doors close. We were starting to lose hope. The fourth train was WAY better. It was really funny because it wasn't even crowded at all.

Good thing, we were patient. Haha.

We then arrived at Baclaran, with our bags close to us, and our hands tightly clasped together. We approached a group of policemen and asked for directions. Rode a pedicab, got lost a bit, then we rode a jeepney.

FINALLY, we arrived at the post office around 10:30 am. He got the package sent by his mom, then we went back to Baclaran Station and went home.

It was extremely HOT. Really tiring, but it was all good. I went to accompany him coz I wanted to do something nice for him. He has never failed to accompany me when I needed him and so this was the least I could do for him.

His mom sent me a Minney Mouse stuffed toy (Awww.)

Thanks, tita.

We arrived at my dorm around 12:30 ... I ate lunch. I slept around 2pm til 7 pm. Hahahaha. (I was really tired.)

Ate dinner with Shang at Anong's. Then Jeff and I stayed at Wendy's til 10 pm. W studied for our Fluid Mechanics exam.

The end. ♥♥♥

Tooogsh.

2008-09-29T01:15:00.002+08:00

NERVOUS.

I still need to do a lot of catching up with my studies.
I want to graduate with my MSGs and my Jeff. =(

HEEEEEEELP.

Please pray for me.

Manga Kaye + Jeff

2008-09-28T17:26:00.002+08:00

Our Anime Version. =D Haha. i LOVE it.

It is sooooo him.
With the chubby face and messy hair. =D

New layout (again).

2008-09-28T16:22:00.004+08:00

Haha. I wasn't too happy with the other one, so I made this one. =D

I wanted a bigger space for my entries and a simple design for my layout . . .

------ TADA!!!!

// It looks ok to me on my laptop, I hope it's the same for you guys.

(paki sabi na lang kung may lampas-lampas pag vniew niyo.)

I made EVERYTHING. The code, the blue-striped background, the background for the blog entries, and the image on top. This is a KARYLL FLORES TRINIDAD original.

Haha. =D

Japan???

2008-09-21T20:43:00.002+08:00

We were having a GOOD time at Wendy's while reviewing Double Integration Method and Area-Moment Method.

Then suddenly he said, "Hon, oo nga pala. Baka magtrabaho ako sa Japan. May kakilala kasi si mama don at kailangan daw ng Civil Engineer."

I just smiled at him then looked down on my paper. I felt really down, thinking ...

WHAT THE HELL?

THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANTED FOR US.

I have always pictured us, graduating together .. then while working, we'd still be as close as possible (though not necessarily in the same COMPANY.) I wanted us to spend our lunch breaks together and be a cute yuppie couple.

We have made plans too. We said that we wouldn't get married quickly, we must first help our families before we create our own.

I know that I said that I haven't thought much of our future, but it's quite hard really. I know, I shouldn't coz it would just get my hopes up. But whenever we're together, we just get to a point where we find ourselves making plans (even silly ones, haha.) ..

Darn. But hey, we still have 2 years together.

With the board exams and 3 more semesters, who knows what'll happen to us, right?

So I guess, we just have to ENJOY what we have RIGHT now.

Wah. It's just hard .. COZ I NEVER REALLY BELIEVED IN LONG-DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS.

Sept. 18, 2007

2008-09-18T02:41:00.003+08:00

The second best desicion I ever made was when I allowed him to court me on September 18, 2007. That was ONE year ago. WOAH.

I texted him just a while ago .. Let's skip the other mushy parts (this blog is too mawkish already).

"Look at your calendar, dear. It's been a year ... (blah blah blah) ... It was one of the best desicions I've ever made 'coz it lead me closer to you ... (blah blah blah) ..."

To the person who makes me so damn excited to wake up every single day ...

♥♥♥ I'll do anything on the off chance it'll make you a little less sad coz it breaks my heart when I see you so down. So SMILE, I'm here.

♥♥♥ I definitely love you more and more each day.

♥♥♥ I love you because you bring out the best in me.

♥♥♥ I have only a handful of friends who have the GUTS to tell me when I'm wrong, but WOAH. I was so surprised when you told me off. Haha. I loved you more because of that. You actually proved that you are more MATURE than I am.

♥♥♥ I feel so SECURED when you wrap your arms around me.

♥♥♥ You never give up on me, and that's what keeps me going.

♥♥♥ "As i would always belong to him, so would he always be mine."

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Ok, so my blog has indeed become a really sappy one. HAHA.

That's how I am, I write when I feel SAD, HAPPY, HURT and when I'm IN-LOVE.

Would you guys rather have me post bitter entries?

Nah, you guys love me too much and you're happy to see me happy, right?? Haha.

XOXO.

Early CHRISTMAS wishlist.

2008-09-13T00:13:00.004+08:00

★ A new jacket.
--------- I need a new hoodie.

★ Complete series of One Tree Hill (DVD)
--------- and Desperate Housewives, Heroes and Gossip Girl.

★ Twilight Series (by Stephanie Meyer): Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse
--------- Waaah. I really WANT to have a copy of these books.

★ Harry Potter 7th Book
--------- WHAT THE HELL? I still don't have my own copy. Haha.

★ A date with ste11ar.
--------- I miss my girls.

★ A date with my MSG.
--------- Out-of-town!!!!!

★ A date with my JEFF.
--------- It would be our first Christmas together. YEY.

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Ok, I know it's too early to make my list. But the material things - - I'd buy them for myself (unless you guys wanna give 'em to me.) HAHAHA.

The others .. The DATES .. DAPAT matupad yan. Hihi.

HAPPY 7th MONTHSARY.

2008-09-12T22:13:00.006+08:00

This is our ONLY picture together this day.
Hihi.

BIG TOBLERONE. Yummm.
Thanks, hon.

Meet my new best friend. =D Hihi.

I LOVE his gift. Yummm.

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On our way to school, he told me that he bought me a cute piece of small chocolate for our monthsary. I frowned, thinking - - -

DARN. Just one piece?

Then, on our break time, we went outside the classroom, we joked around then he asked me if I wanted to see his gift already. I nodded.

He turned around, opened his bag and brought out the BIIIIIIG toblerone. WOW. I was jumping like a kid when I saw it. Haha.

I've told him months ago that I wanted to buy myself that coz I've already tried the BIG Hershey's KISS. (And it was GOOOOOD, baybeh.)

So I was touched that he remembered my story. SWEEEEEET.

Then after our class, we went to "The Pit" and ate dinner. His treat (again.)

We then played billiards. I lost. 3-2. Haha. (He let me win twice.) He's just too NICE. He helped me out with some of my shots and I had a lot of do-overs. HAHAHAHA.

We then went to my dormitory and just sat at our favorite spot. It was the same spot where we hung out way before we became a couple.

He was super MALAMBING. WAAAAAH. I'm so friggin lucky to have him.

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I LOVE YOU, hon. Thank you for this day. MMMMMMWWWWAAAAAAAH.

New LAYOUT.

2008-09-12T02:57:00.005+08:00

Haha. Just in time for our 7th monthsary.

Lately, we've been EXTREMELY happy together. He's EXTRA sweet (iloveit.)

He somehow makes everyday more bearable without even trying. He can make me forget all my problems just by holding my hands. He makes me feel so loved and protected every time he kisses my forehead. He makes me feel safe just by standing next to me. He eats a lot too, which makes him fun to be with during breakfast, lunch and dinner time (Hahaha.)

I've found HIM. I've found the person I wanna spend the rest of my life with.

But I can only cross my fingers for now.

I love you, hon. Mmmmwaaaah.

I have the POWEEEER.

2008-08-14T03:30:00.002+08:00

FRIENDSTER HOROSCOPE:

It's all in your head today -- in other words, you can alter your reality by simply thinking differently than you have been. Feeling unattractive? Simply remind yourself that you are indeed very attractive, and people will start seeing it. Worried you won't pass a test? Tell yourself that you'll do as well as you can, and then you will. It's important to realize that your powers of positive thinking are just as strong as your powers of negative thinking -- so make sure to think the right way.

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SEE?? I'm gorgeous!!!!
And I will PASS. DAMN IT.

Class pictures.

2008-08-11T01:51:00.007+08:00

(Wala si Paola at Micah. Daya mo Pao. Huhu.)

(Ok. ANG TABA KO.)

(Wacky.)

(FAT. Huhu.)

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Click the images.

Confidence, baybeh.

2008-08-07T01:17:00.006+08:00

I learned that they've made nasty comments about me long before I met them.

They've made comments about my looks. (PANGIT daw ako.)

Now that's not something anyone would want to hear, right? Haha.

But I wasn't really SHOCKED or anything. I don't claim to be beautiful anyway. LOL.

But I do think I'm cute. Sure .. I have ugly teeth. I have a lot of pimples and my eyes are really puffy because of the lack of sleep. I have a weird-shaped head and I'm FAT. For my other ugly features (Consult Shang. Haha.)

See? I know 'em all. So I wasn't really shocked that they made nasty comments.

But I still think, I'm cute. (Kanya-kanya na lang yan.)

Behlat. Haha.

It's how you really see yourself. That's the most important part.

But ... I'm still stressing over our class with Sir Jess tom.

2008-08-07T00:44:00.002+08:00

I'm going crazy.

He's probably gonna announce the grade tom. Oh happy day!
This is TORTURE.

I haven't decided if I should go to class tom. Should I bother showing up?

See, it's so damn hard to be able to hold it together .. when everyone else expects you to fall apart.

But I have to constantly remind myself, that EVERYTHING happens for a reason.

I see this not as a challenge but something that will make me stronger.

Come on, let's get this OVER with. =(

2008-07-25T02:24:00.001+08:00

Ang cute namin dito oh. Haha.

Ang kumontra .. PANGIT. =P
Ang mag-agree sswertehin sa buhay.

2008-07-16T15:32:00.000+08:00

STAY WITH YOU

We've been together for a while now
We're growing stronger everyday now
It feels so good and there's no doubt
I will stay with you as each morning brings sunrise
And the flowers bloom in springtime
On my love you can rely
And I'll stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you

Though relationships can get old
They have the tendency to grow cold
We have something like miracle
Yeah, and I'll stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you

And there will be heartaches and pains, yes it will
But through it all, we will remain
In this life, we all know
Friends may come, and they may go
Through the years I know
I will stay
And in the end I know that we'll find
Love so beautiful and divine
We'll be lovers for the lifetime, yeah
And I'll stay with you
I will stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you
Everything will be fine
And I will stay with you
Through the end of time
I will stay with you

5th month.

2008-07-14T17:16:00.004+08:00

5 months and counting. =P

Had a BLAST.

i'm OK.

2008-07-06T04:14:00.004+08:00

we're OK. =P finally.

i MISSED him so much.

he promised to bring back the old JEFF.

everyone makes mistakes. and he did hurt me (SO MUCH). but it happens. and he didn't mean it.

word vomit. that was exactly what happened.

compared to every single good thing that he's done for me .. the crap that he said .. amounts to nothing.

he LOVES me. that's all i need to know.

we'll work things out.

sure, we'll still FIGHT. but .. if we're really meant to be together .. then we'll be OK. right?

can hardly wait for July 12. Yipee.

345th post.

2008-06-26T21:28:00.003+08:00

PRESSURED. from all the schoolworks.
FRUSTRATED. with myself.
SAD. because of my family.
CONFUSED. of how things have turned out between me and jeff.
PLEASED. with the effort i exert for my studies.
DISAPPOINTED. with a handful of people.
HAPPY. because of my friends.

2008-06-05T02:38:00.000+08:00

I haven’t written anything for a while and I had everything bottled up inside. So .. just allow me to be absolutely lame, corny, and mushy.

Karyll Flores Trinidad is in-love. Haha. Que Horror!

I love the way he reaches my hand at unexpected moments. The way he can make me laugh with just a look. We spend endless hours talking about ‘nothing’ and ‘everything’.

I love being with him because he’s Jeff. And trust me, that’s reason enough.

He knows the real me, and still .. he chose to stay. Haha. Brave boy.

I found myself doing lots of new things that I wouldn’t have tried on my own. He taught me to broaden my horizon to look beyond my comfort zone.

I am looking forward to creating more wonderful memories with him.
The best is yet to come. =P